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Oh Linda - you have had a real bad time haven't you. Well you've found friends on this thread for sure. I believe an underactive thyroid can make you feel slow and lethargic - others might know more about this than me - but are you on medication for it - if you are then it should eventually make things better. At least you are getting support from your CPN and your GP - some others on this thread have not been quite so fortunate. I'm on antidepressants and have been for the past fifteen or so years and I also tried to top myself with an overdose but happily failed. We've all had problems of one kind and another and all had or have mental health problems so I have no hesitation in saying that you could pm anyone on this thread and they would help - I certainly would and if ever you want someone to talk to or are feeling low, pm me and I'll give you my email and phone number - do not feel alone - that's the main thing. Do you live alone or is anyone with you?

I've been out tonight and thought I'd look on here before I go to bed. Wow!!! I never expected a response like this. Which shows if you don't talk about it you think you are on your own, open up and you're with friends. Pm's welcome I'll get back to you next time I look in on pooter! I know there is more out there!! I haven't even told all my own problem so know you can also add more. Takes courage certainly been a lot of that on here.
Love to you all Carole x

I have found this thread really interesting,
I, too suffer depression., since the age of 9yrs. I was diagnosed with epilepsy and took medication for it for the last 33yrs, during my teenage years I tried to end my life ,I almost succeeded on many occasions.when I think back I never had a very good childhood, my mother telling me she wished me dead lowered my esteem. when I was 24, I spent time in hospital for 5 months, I promised myself I would not return back there, I have been to my gp for anti depressants over years but I found some made me feel worse, I was very ill again in 2004, then admitted into pychiatric unit for 2 months in march 2005. I have some good days & bad days. I see my pychiatrist evey 6/8 weeks & I have a cpn who come every 2 weeks. I have`nt been to well this last few weeks like tonight I have only been up since abt 5pm.I have been told off my gp I have an underactive thyriod gland & my kidneys are not functioning properly,guess that maybe one of the problems of me being tired!
Linda.

Feel like a fraud posting on here after reading some of the threads. Makes me feel lucky I'm ONLY on 20mg of citolapram a day. Have been for a year now but still on waiting list for counselling.

I think I'd been down for a while but it was only when I came close to walking out on job, partner, everything that I asked for help. I think I was lucky to realise that disappearing from the lives of all who cared for me wouldn't resolve the issues.

I'm also lucky in having a supportive partner unlike my sister who no longer admits to her depression after her partner told her it was all in her head.

T.O.R. xx

well thank you for that Marion - so nice of you to say that, I do appreciate it

I am in the citolapram club 30mgs have been depressed since my oh died Valxxx

so Susi are y ou on the old anti-depressants too? You've had a lot to put up with from a very early age and you should never have been exposed to family arguments, nor should y our mother have treated you like an adult as she seems to have done - so good you have a supportive partner [by the way I got chickenpox at 21 - flipping awful wasn't it] Everyone on here is in the same boat so you are amongst friends - pm any of us if you want

Can i just say that reading this
thread i have tears in my eyes
But i admire you all, you are such
a lovely bunch of people .
and if there anything i can
do to help just pm me
Hazelx

Susi, I think I am lucky in knowing what has brought mine on, doesn't make it any better though, my emotions are still all over the place like you say, and I still have my black days. The thing is I get so frustrated because I can't do anything without falling, then that gets me in my black cloud again. The black is gradually growing lighter though, thanks to my psychologist.

Caz xx

Alison, snap; I was ok tilI had my first child 10 yrs ago. Was 95% better 5 yrs ago but had a very bad 2002, and a small breakdown. But I like to think on a scale of 1-10, Im a 7 most days. Which is better than a 1! Try and stay strong, I'm certain theres a light at the end of the tunnel, so many people have come out the other side :-)

thanks Lindsey - I've never suffered in silence though - got a big gob me!!

I have to say how proud of you all I am, thankyou for sharing your stories, it's very humbling to see how many of you have suffered in silence.
You are all very special people. Thankyou Lindsey

Looks like you have been here all the time Ann, I've just got out of bath and come to have a nosy
. Twinkle, I never saw your thread, sorry I would have answered. I think it is lovely to have our own thread, Thanks Carole, it really does help us all if we can put our feelings down. I used to think no-one understood but if this can be kept going (nudge, nudge Ann), we have a safety line for us all.

Caz xx

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nudge for a very good thread

Hi Ali - our group is growing bigger all the time - that's really good - all in it together - I feel a bit of a fraud really but know if I stopped medication I'd be on the floor so keep taking the tablets is my motto!!

course you can join Carol - welcome aboard

Can I join too?
i have been on paroxetine on and off for several years now but have had bouts of depression since i was in my 20's. It's awful and very scary when it first happens, now I tend to recognize the symptoms a bit earlier!! It's still scares the hell out of me the way it creeps up though, one minute you think you are coping with the c.r.a.p. that life throws at you and the next you know you aren't even coping well with run of the mill things!
carol

can i join in a few day back i put up a thread as i was suffering really bad with anxity attack and depresion was put on diazipan now aslo put on cilitroran 20mg day havent started them yet as sounds silly but to frightend to as heard that many bad things about them have felt alot better last two days think diazipan are working somtimes i feel like im going mad imagining all sorts of bad thing if i have a pain im thinking its somthing really bad will nudge my thread up support of others does help i got so many pms helping me thanx all regards elaine

Thanks for sharing all your stories folks - it can't have been easy for some of you and is much appreciated.
20% of us will suffer depression at some time in our lives so, although by the very nature of the condition, people feel as if they are on their own it is a very widespread allbeit misunderstood illness. Exercise, diet ( especially limited alcohol and caffeine) relaxation and a supportive network can all help a lot - but at low times they can all be too much effort. Just hang in there folks - it does get better and as has already been said there is a great supportive network on here.

Hugs to all

Kate