General Chat

I think when I was younger I thought I was immortal. I mean, I knew that I would die one day as everyone does, but I didn't believe it. I became very aware of my mortality when my father died, and I can empathise with Carol - once you are a parent you feel you have a duty to preserve yourself to look after your children. I can remember being at home with my first son and thinking that one day he would have to cope with my death and bawling my eyes out at the thought. So I am more cautious now - I was never reckless, but I am more careful in crossing the road, I always look for fire exits when I go to a new building etc. not in a neurotic way, just in a sort of precautionary way. I do feel I must live until my sons are both grown. Someone did read my palm once and told me I would die at 60 but I'm not convinced. nell

It's not really the dying I am afraid of but don't much relish the bit leading up to it.

In answer to your question, yes constantly. I've only felt like this since the birth of my son five years ago. I'm sure it's because you have someone so dependant on you, you worry what would happen if you were'nt around or maybe it's because I'm on the wrong side of thirty!! Oh well,when it happens, none of us will know about it anyway!! It doesn't help digging up all these old rellies either, what a constant reminder!! Going now, to have some happy thoughts!!! Carol

yes twice . First time when I had a lump removed from the back of my head and had to wait for the results of a biopsy.Second time was when I was hit in the head by a full keg of Cider and drifted in and out of conciousness and watched the pool of blood from my head just getting bigger. 2 lovely scars now one on back of head biopsy all clear and one above right eye had operation on left eye to balance sight.

Oh BC that is really eerie I have heard of that type of thing before. Davex

Two years ago I had an operation and something went wrong with the anaesthetic. I remember lots of shouting and activity and in a vague dreamy way, I could hear this horrible, laboured breathing... poor ba***rd, I thought, he's on the way out.... then I realized it was me! But funnily enough, I was not afraid. BC

Thanks Dave, I feel very good now and people making me laugh must help, but I have to tell you thought I was going to faint last night, when I saw your thread about running around naked, well it frightened the life out of me, you can get arrested for that sort of thing, plus we haven't really got the best weather for it, you could catch your death. LMHO. ;-) Love Pat x

that must have been scary Louise cant ever recall fainting! Dx

Glad you are ok now Pat and in full flow on the boards Take care Davex

The other night when I woke up at about 2am with awful stomach cramps and was as pale as a sheet. I thought that I was going to vomit so I knelt on the bathroom floor. One minute I was kneeling the next I was on the floor staring at the base of the toilet, I'd fainted. Eventually my husband came to my aid and diagnosed heat exhaustion. He made me some orange and added salt as per medical book dosage. A few hours later the cramps went and I was fine but drank lots. I'd been out cleaning the guttering and tidying the garden pots, etc and hadn't really noticed how hot I was getting because it was breezy and I wasn't particularly thirsty. Won't do that again! It's scary when you wake up like that after a deep sleep. Louise

No Dave never bothered me, but I came very close this year, so close I was in septic shock I could feel myself going the voices dimenishing and pure blankness, thats the only way I can describe it. Maybe its because I am not religious and I don't believe in life after death but it was a very strange experience just pure Black Blankness but I was too weak to care. Got an awful shock when I woke up in Intensive care, very perculiar it was. Pat x

Dave not so much of dieing but how and where who knows Howard

Gosh mine is insignificant to what a lot of you have been through but for that twelve months it made me ill and maybe that was in my mind as well! Dx

I have always feared death, probably because I enjoy life so much! BC

Yes it did help. It was a very strange and nasty experience all together but I think I am less scared of death now. Wow! How morbid and serious of me :-) Helenxx

yes dave,it was in 1999,and i was one of the first medics on scene,at the paddington train crash,i was crawling across bodies looking for survivors,when the carriage caught fire. i thought that was it! bryan.

Dave at the age of 12 I was in a coma for almost two weeks - i lapsed in and out of consciousness and knew i was dying. i saw the light above me and was happy, not scared at all. Fortunately I recovered but have never forgotten that feeling. Anne

Have had to be revived a couple of times after surgery - ( have problems with anaesthetics) I wasnt really scared then - I was younger. A bit scared now though - as I have so much left I want to do. But what is for you wont go by you as they say in Scotland

How honest Julie your hubby will come through it like I did but it does freak you out.! Dx

When I was 14 I took a massive overdose and thought I would die but wasn't afraid. Hubby is convinced he will die in a car crash at46